Hello everyone! Truth be told, I am looking thróugh daily post’s assignments again and found today’s assignment just… well… great.
The question was whom I would give a vile of truth serum to if I possessed one.
Saying it bluntly: I would give it to myself.
Sounds stupid, doesn’t it? Well, for me it appears to be the only chance to get the truth out of my deepest thoughts.
There are so many questions I could ask myself over and over again without getting an answer although deep inside of me I might know how to respond.
Our subconscious is a place which is indeed a part of us but still seems to make its own decisions.
Deciding if we are allowed to remember something, if we are granted to forget, if we are to be mistaken, if we are to be right….
That might not sound too bad because thinking of people who had to endure traumatic stress it might be valuable to keep their sanity and their life. But in the end, that doesn’t matter because that would mean to pretend to have a different background story. Actions and reactions which would be self-explaining due to a course of past events appear questionable – actually out of place or just wrong.
How can we define our actions, what we are doing and who we really are, if we pretend – deliberately or not – if we don’t know the reasoning behind it all, the way life changed us?
We might never know who we really are if we never get to know why we are acting the way we do.
It’s the same with feelings.
Our subcoscious, in order to prevent, to prottect, or whatever other reason possibly exists, keeps denying, pretending and concealing.
Love for example could be such an easy thing if we ever got the chance to be answered the most important question: Is this real love?
So if I somewhen somehow got a vile of truth serum I would give it to myself so that I could ask my subconscious about all the things it’s denying, lying or keeping quiet about.